My life was utopia…a brilliance of art

on a realm of a mysterious revival indulging in

a sweet taste of bewilderment…

when I found myself wandering in a dense fog

inhaling the misty air surrounding me

my limbs grew weak –collapsing to the earth beneath me.

Subdued …crazy thoughts raced across

the crest of my mind

leaving me agitated for memory–

I could not place my heightened fever for having

it came over me so dreadfully.

I was lost…

alone-in my own abyss

cradling to cement walls hindering my escape–

I was being fused to another time and place.

The boundaries seemed familiar…

reflecting rays of gold–

A bright illuminating light drew me in

to the deepest center of my core.

My breath was warm and tasting like

salt from the sea…

I felt like I was drowning yet had no fear.

The feelings I felt for myself of nothingness

disappeared–

A soft calming voice instructed me

to remain still so I could feel peace surround me.

My need for constant approval left–

my life’s purpose faded in and out

of what I thought mattered.

I felt something meaningful move

throughout my heart…

like an internal eclipse radiating love

into my mortal soul.

All my reasons for living now meant

something bigger–

no longer was I alone.